The UNO cards just became an ice rink for the kids to slide and dive in. i noticed the rubber band for them around my wrist. The cards were one of the many things I was trying to find as the dinner hour was approaching. Hoping my energy burst would soon kick in, the anticipation of my man walking through the door, the excited voices and little legs running to greet their daddy. I don't want to forget these days where it seems I am constantly seeking.
I am grasping the truth that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ. It is ok. i am ok.
I am more than ok as I lie in the middle of my bed at 7 a.m. with two preschoolers fast asleep squishing me as if I was the cream in the Oreo. I have been beating myself up for not getting up for morning quiet time or exercise but today I close my eyes to seek The Lord for the way He planned my day. It isn't my plan but a way everlasting. It is unlike this moment where I can feel the tiny breadths hit my face and their lil arms rub my own. I know it won't be this way forever.
I know there won't be many more days where I find the three kids jumping on my freshly made bed that they totally stripped of bedding. I jump on along and then find myself belly down all cozy into the mattress reading books to my daughter as the boys wrestle amidst the story. They giggle and fall and my one year old sits upon my back.
I accept the grace that security was established in my children today and it was more than just the pajamas that my 5 year old wore all day long. It was the bible stories that we read at breakfast, the many twirls I did with each child in my arms until we were so dizzy the room was spinning and I collapsed on the couch. it was spontaneous random hugs in the middle of the reading lesson as my daughter giggles and begs to get back to her reading.
As I open the fridge to start the dinner, I grin to see the plastic Easter egg as the kids are actually playing on their own ... Hiding and seeking the Easter eggs. And so I ponder our verse for the week; Excited that we have made it all the way to the letter S with the verse from Isaiah 55:6 Seek The Lord while He may be found. I think The Lord showed me a whole new way to that truth today. Now where did all those UNO cards go?
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
I never want to forget
Please note: this writing to is for my personal documentation of a foundational conversation and truth blast that is pivotal in our lives for the Glory of God. Please read with this in mind and know that I am not writing for an audience of blog readers. But still I choose to keep my blog public because I love people and believe God speaks to us in mysterious and unforseen ways and life experiences of others.
I never want to forget...the realization that I had to explain to my 5 year old..I cannot keep it from her anymore. As scary as it is. It is reality. It isn't discussed because it isn't understood by the world. It's all written and explained in one book yet more than just any book. The living holy word of God and even those words are not going to be believed and accepted by many. I realize this hard heart wrenching truth. Even now as I write this my eyes are full of tears because this world is a battle ground.
Where countries are consumed by selfish deceit of hopes of authority, wealth and prosperity.
Where men are being lied to and cheated out of their identity as God created them for. Where women are pressured to one up career status quo.
Where women make their homes and nurture their children in the worlds disrespect and with daily gruelsome toil that more often than not raw tired emotion, lonliness, and tiny tot mundane tasks are more than they can bear.
Marriages crumble. Children ache and simply survive with confusion and much unknown.
Sin encroaches...There is no one righteous, not even one; there is not one who understands, not one who seeks God. (Romans 3:11)
But the battle belongs to the Lord!
So read on...
Now a righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. (Romans 3:21-26)
My 5 year old and my 3 year old know these two realities written in red above , but what I had to explain...what I couldn't keep from her any longer after a direct question from my daughter, "Mom, Satan is dead, right?"
I had to tell her truth. Sugar coating won't make it better, because her earthly life is only going to get harder, temptation and trials and sin and the presence of evil will come as the day grows near. The battle is getting stronger because time is running out...
I never want to forget...or want my family to forget that:
Satan is alive but we need not be afraid. Follow this truth:
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil (aka Satan) prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. to him be power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 5:8)
So, we talked about the good versus evil; God, creator and ruler or heaven and earth and Satan, prince of this world (earth). That Satan is alive. And Satan's purpose is to detour humans from the love of Jesus Christ and the greatest display of power ever to be known to man (The resurrection from death on a cross.) Even Satan knows the truth and who wins. Therefore, we should hold fast to Jesus. "Jesus is in my heart, mom." Miracle said. "Yes, and just always remember that and who won the battle?"
Jesus said, "Do not be afraid. I am the first and the last. I am the Living One: I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades." (Revelation 1:17-18)
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And so it is no surprise to me as I reflect upon my week that I can see the prowling lion seeking us. I have let my womanly hormones and emotions overtake at times. I walked away from bible study discouraged and alone. Tempted to stop trying to make friends in this new place. The trip to the library was stressful and defeating. The mom role was wearisome. My husbands work was longer and more grueling than most weeks leading to disconnect in marriage.
Yet, in it all through the power of Jesus in my family, a testimony and glimpse of victory was shared with people all over the country through a letter, a girl was encouraged about a daily Jesus time over coffee, neighbors were lifted up in prayer, co-workers were prayed for, protection and healing were captured through the power of prayer, and my daughter is singing louder and bolder than ever the name of JESUS because she knows the truth. I opened the ipad only to find that my husband was working on making a detailed prayer list for each day of the week. i was humbled after frustration with him. And I am brought back to the heartbeat of what I was created for...the daily mundane is more than what I see, it is a battle field and we should live in VICTORY for all to see whether they understand, have eyes to see, or ears to hear...Satan has always been alive but Jesus was alive, was dead, and is alive forevermore. So I will not stop. I never want to forget that this earthly life is more...it is a battle and though Satan is alive and appearing to win...Jesus won the victory!
Our eyes are fixed upon it.
Amen.
I never want to forget...the realization that I had to explain to my 5 year old..I cannot keep it from her anymore. As scary as it is. It is reality. It isn't discussed because it isn't understood by the world. It's all written and explained in one book yet more than just any book. The living holy word of God and even those words are not going to be believed and accepted by many. I realize this hard heart wrenching truth. Even now as I write this my eyes are full of tears because this world is a battle ground.
Where countries are consumed by selfish deceit of hopes of authority, wealth and prosperity.
Where men are being lied to and cheated out of their identity as God created them for. Where women are pressured to one up career status quo.
Where women make their homes and nurture their children in the worlds disrespect and with daily gruelsome toil that more often than not raw tired emotion, lonliness, and tiny tot mundane tasks are more than they can bear.
Marriages crumble. Children ache and simply survive with confusion and much unknown.
Sin encroaches...There is no one righteous, not even one; there is not one who understands, not one who seeks God. (Romans 3:11)
But the battle belongs to the Lord!
So read on...
Now a righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. (Romans 3:21-26)
My 5 year old and my 3 year old know these two realities written in red above , but what I had to explain...what I couldn't keep from her any longer after a direct question from my daughter, "Mom, Satan is dead, right?"
I had to tell her truth. Sugar coating won't make it better, because her earthly life is only going to get harder, temptation and trials and sin and the presence of evil will come as the day grows near. The battle is getting stronger because time is running out...
I never want to forget...or want my family to forget that:
Satan is alive but we need not be afraid. Follow this truth:
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy, the devil (aka Satan) prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. to him be power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 5:8)
So, we talked about the good versus evil; God, creator and ruler or heaven and earth and Satan, prince of this world (earth). That Satan is alive. And Satan's purpose is to detour humans from the love of Jesus Christ and the greatest display of power ever to be known to man (The resurrection from death on a cross.) Even Satan knows the truth and who wins. Therefore, we should hold fast to Jesus. "Jesus is in my heart, mom." Miracle said. "Yes, and just always remember that and who won the battle?"
Jesus said, "Do not be afraid. I am the first and the last. I am the Living One: I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades." (Revelation 1:17-18)
------
And so it is no surprise to me as I reflect upon my week that I can see the prowling lion seeking us. I have let my womanly hormones and emotions overtake at times. I walked away from bible study discouraged and alone. Tempted to stop trying to make friends in this new place. The trip to the library was stressful and defeating. The mom role was wearisome. My husbands work was longer and more grueling than most weeks leading to disconnect in marriage.
Yet, in it all through the power of Jesus in my family, a testimony and glimpse of victory was shared with people all over the country through a letter, a girl was encouraged about a daily Jesus time over coffee, neighbors were lifted up in prayer, co-workers were prayed for, protection and healing were captured through the power of prayer, and my daughter is singing louder and bolder than ever the name of JESUS because she knows the truth. I opened the ipad only to find that my husband was working on making a detailed prayer list for each day of the week. i was humbled after frustration with him. And I am brought back to the heartbeat of what I was created for...the daily mundane is more than what I see, it is a battle field and we should live in VICTORY for all to see whether they understand, have eyes to see, or ears to hear...Satan has always been alive but Jesus was alive, was dead, and is alive forevermore. So I will not stop. I never want to forget that this earthly life is more...it is a battle and though Satan is alive and appearing to win...Jesus won the victory!
Our eyes are fixed upon it.
Amen.
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