Thursday, March 21, 2013

Seek and He Will Be Found

The UNO cards just became an ice rink for the kids to slide and dive in. i noticed the rubber band for them around my wrist. The cards were one of the many things I was trying to find as the dinner hour was approaching. Hoping my energy burst would soon kick in, the anticipation of my man walking through the door, the excited voices and little legs running to greet their daddy. I don't want to forget these days where it seems I am constantly seeking.

I am grasping the truth that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ. It is ok. i am ok.

I am more than ok as I lie in the middle of my bed at 7 a.m. with two preschoolers fast asleep squishing me as if I was the cream in the Oreo. I have been beating myself up for not getting up for morning quiet time or exercise but today I close my eyes to seek The Lord for the way He planned my day. It isn't my plan but a way everlasting. It is unlike this moment where I can feel the tiny breadths hit my face and their lil arms rub my own. I know it won't be this way forever.

I know there won't be many more days where I find the three kids jumping on my freshly made bed that they totally stripped of bedding. I jump on along and then find myself belly down all cozy into the mattress reading books to my daughter as the boys wrestle amidst the story. They giggle and fall and my one year old sits upon my back.

I accept the grace that security was established in my children today and it was more than just the pajamas that my 5 year old wore all day long. It was the bible stories that we read at breakfast, the many twirls I did with each child in my arms until we were so dizzy the room was spinning and I collapsed on the couch. it was spontaneous random hugs in the middle of the reading lesson as my daughter giggles and begs to get back to her reading.

As I open the fridge to start the dinner, I grin to see the plastic Easter egg as the kids are actually playing on their own ... Hiding and seeking the Easter eggs. And so I ponder our verse for the week; Excited that we have made it all the way to the letter S with the verse from Isaiah 55:6 Seek The Lord while He may be found. I think The Lord showed me a whole new way to that truth today. Now where did all those UNO cards go?