His name really means gift of God and again the Lord has proven to us that His ways are perfect by naming Matthias perfectly according to his destiny as God’s very own child.
Well, I started reading Genesis lately for a quiet time and I was stopped in my tracks as I read Genesis 2:7 “The Lord God formed the man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.”
It brought me back to praising God for Matthias.
The pictures in my mind of the moments before Matthias went on the ventilator as his little nostrils and chest cavity became still without breath flowing through them…I just compiled my CaringBridge site pages into a book as a faith reminder. As I reflect on the pages of support and the many prayer warriors, it is obvious that God gave and took away and that He breathed into Matthias’ nostrils the breath of life once again.
I still don’t have the answer to all of my ‘why’ questions.
I still whisper a prayer in Matthias’ ear each night as I lay him down, “God please help Matthias to breathe throughout the night as he sleeps and keep him healthy and safe."
I cherish the sovereignty of God even more.
But, yet still the human fear and deep love for Matthias have me checking on Matthias several times a night as I quietly lean over into the crib and hold my hand beneath his nostrils to feel the movement of breathing…and stand back up thanking God for doing what he says He does.
I am so thankful for the Gift of my baby boy!
Oh my Matthias…my 8 month old, first born son, who smiles the minute he sees me in the morning, who sits up and plays with his toys, tries to chew and eat every tag that he can find on every toy or stuffed animal, will always choose the sweeter foods like bananas and apples over green beans or peas, has a left eye that produces goop, likes to suck on his toes when I take his clothes off, weighs as much (or maybe more) than his two 16 month old cousins, loves to watch his sister and laughs at her often, he likes to be tickled, a mommy’s boy, but loves adventures with daddy as he throws him in the air and other daring things that make a young momma’s heart skip a beat, who still likes to wake up at 11am and 3am to ‘eat’ and be with mommy, likes to sleep with his blanket touching his face, and doesn’t always liked to be held or cuddled (when he wants to sleep, he wants to be lying down), he’s starting to jabber and has figured out how to say mama and da dddd, he loves a book about barnyard friends, and enjoys taking baths with Miracle…Oh I could go on…
I just love my lil’ boy!
I thank you that you have already used Matthias to further your Kingdom and I pray Lord that you would continue to use the breath you give Matthias to extend the breath of life to others in this world; that he would be a witness to the resurrection of Christ and the personal relationship that you offer.
Thank you God, for this gift!
