Blind Faith Offers Heightened Senses

I don't know very many blind people, but the few testimonies that I have read or heard from blind individuals is that they believe they are greatly blessed because they are so much more aware of the other senses they do have. They also have such a heightened intimate relationship with Jesus Christ that it appears that they can actually SEE what we all would like to see. Oh how I long to be in this place with my Jesus...but yet I am so far from it.
I am walking through this life right now with blind faith and the only one that can guide me is the Lord Jesus Christ. But lately, I so often have changed from walking out my blind faith to living within what only my human eyes can see in the temporary. I am completely overwhelmed when this happens. I place myself right in a muddy puddle of meltdown tears and pity parties. The fear, worry, anxiety, and confusion whirl around inside my heart and mind and I lose all heightened sense that I should have.
When I am walking in blind faith, I can echo the words from

Psalm 119:105-112

Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light for my path.

I have taken oath and confirmed it, that I will follow your righteous laws.

I have suffered much; preserve my life, Lord, according to your word.

Accept, Lord, the willing praise of my mouth, and teach me your laws.

Though I constantly take my life in my hands, I will not forget your law.

The wicked have set a snare for me, but I have not strayed from your precepts.

Your statutes are my heritage forever; they are the joy of my heart.

My heart is set on keeping your decrees to the very end.

So, for today (when all I know and feel is revealing to me that I am living in the temporary) I am choosing to allow the Lord to blind the eyes of my heart that I may walk in blind faith. With Jesus, I can support my husband and be his #1 helpmate, I can be a stay at home homeschool mom and do it well...This is not to say that life will get easier, but at least I will have heightened senses of secuirty, peace, joy, understanding, and wisdom and with those I will be greatly blessed.