One of Those Days

One of these days...I’m gonna see my Savior face to face. But today was not ‘one of these days’, it was one of those days. You know those days when everything is in question, the tears fall easily, and life just seems HARD.

Here where some of my questions throughout the day:
*When will I be able to sleep for more than 3 – 4 hours a night?
*How do I parent a two year old, a strong-willed two year old?
*How do I acquire the parenting skills to raise God fearing, Jesus loving, prayer warriors, and give them freedom from generational bondage?
*When will my marriage become “alive” again?
*How can I experience peace on earth and goodwill to men as Christ word talks about?
*Jesus can you help me understand life?
*What should Christmas feel and look like?

It is one of those days that I want more than ever to run away to a place with room enough for just Jesus and me. I want to live for Christ. I want to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord (Psalm 27) and think about the things of heaven not the things of earth (Colossians 3). I long to find my real life; the life that is hidden with Christ in God (Colossians 3). It is so easy to get lost in the stresses of this world. It took all I had to just close my eyes and breathe deeply all the while asking Jesus to fill me. I have been fighting my prideful self-sufficient human ways and questions all day today. How much harder has Christ been fighting for me today, I wonder? For I know these struggles I fight are not of flesh and blood, but against the powers of this dark world (Ephesians 6). Surely, Christ has taken up my infirmities and carried my sorrows (Isaiah 53).

Persevering. Longing. Asking. Craving. The Lord, the Lord Almighty, it is He who can touch the earth and make it melt, He builds his lofty palace in the heavens, who calls for the waters of the sea, the Lord is His name (Amos 9).

Desiring just a lil’ more of Jesus. I know that is who I need. It is Jesus…yes “He (Jesus) will stand and shepherd his flock in the strength of the Lord, in the majesty of the name of the Lord His God. And we (you and me) will live securely, for His greatness will reach to the ends of the earth. And He will be our peace.” (Micah 5).

Well it’s 10:30 at night and I’ve just barely made is through the day holding on to just the breath that God has given me to serve Him. But as I reflect I can’t help but get teary eyed because the WORD has done it again. The LIVING WORD of GOD has filled my spirit with HOPE and shown me a glimpse of Jesus Christ.

*It is in Jesus that I can rest.
*In Him, I will be able to parent my two year old…Jesus please help me!
*Jesus is in all and In Him all things (even my marriage) will hold together and be strengthened, glorifying God.
*Jesus Christ will fill me with all wisdom and understanding for this earthly life.
*Jesus, yes it is you, Jesus, King of Kings and Lord of Lords, born in a stable for there was no room for you in the inn. I pray that Christmas may look and feel just as it was meant to be: all about your birth!

So, it has … just been one of those days that makes me yearn for one of these days. Yet it doesn’t seem so bad after all because I was drawn to breathe more of Him and in that I was blessed!
Goodnight.
Hold tight for one of these days will soon be here and heaven will be our home forever and ever.
Grace and Peace to you from God my Father and my Savior and Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.